1 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:16,480 Dear Red Shoes, sometimes you gamble and lose, and sometimes your worst 2 00:01:16,480 --> 00:01:18,380 nightmare can end up being your salvation. 3 00:01:19,500 --> 00:01:21,560 At least that's the way it turned out for me. 4 00:01:24,220 --> 00:01:26,260 Have you ever wanted to let go? 5 00:01:26,920 --> 00:01:29,180 I mean, really let go. 6 00:01:30,780 --> 00:01:32,720 And just escape what you had become? 7 00:01:34,120 --> 00:01:35,120 I did. 8 00:01:36,280 --> 00:01:40,030 I was trapped in a world that I had helped create, and I know... longer 9 00:01:40,030 --> 00:01:44,010 understood i was a prisoner 10 00:01:44,010 --> 00:01:50,650 it's funny though are we ever really free we're just 11 00:01:50,650 --> 00:01:56,730 simply pawns in the game of control well i was desperate for the answer but 12 00:01:56,730 --> 00:02:03,390 i didn't know how far i'd have to go i wanted to push beyond the beyond 13 00:02:08,330 --> 00:02:12,790 I was at the edge of an abyss, and I decided to take the plunge. 14 00:03:10,890 --> 00:03:11,890 Looks like you're okay. 15 00:03:13,350 --> 00:03:15,210 I found you this morning in the surf. 16 00:03:16,730 --> 00:03:17,790 Do you speak English? 17 00:03:22,310 --> 00:03:24,010 You don't have a boat or a radio? 18 00:03:25,610 --> 00:03:26,610 Nothing. 19 00:03:28,170 --> 00:03:29,710 I'm afraid you're stuck here with me. 20 00:03:31,810 --> 00:03:33,370 Until someone happens by. 21 00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:13,520 Look at you. 22 00:04:13,740 --> 00:04:14,980 Looks like you're okay. 23 00:04:17,120 --> 00:04:18,320 Remember what happened? 24 00:04:20,839 --> 00:04:26,660 Well, I was on a yacht, and I flipped over the side. 25 00:04:27,840 --> 00:04:33,840 And from there, I just laid on my back and drifted away. 26 00:05:07,050 --> 00:05:09,410 Has anybody ever taken complete control of you? 27 00:05:22,110 --> 00:05:28,990 If he asked me to, I would crawl across a 28 00:05:28,990 --> 00:05:30,110 dirt floor for him. 29 00:05:34,150 --> 00:05:35,970 Yeah, I was out of control. 30 00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:42,500 You ever been taken over like that? 31 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:02,460 Just let me be in control. 32 00:08:06,320 --> 00:08:08,880 So what do we do if no one ever comes to take me away? 33 00:08:12,160 --> 00:08:13,520 Sooner or later, someone will come. 34 00:08:14,340 --> 00:08:15,340 Someone always comes. 35 00:08:16,620 --> 00:08:18,340 And you never attempted to go with them? 36 00:08:19,440 --> 00:08:20,440 No, never. 37 00:08:21,380 --> 00:08:24,640 When I found this place, I chopped up some of the boat that brought me here. 38 00:08:25,180 --> 00:08:26,560 I used it for firewood. 39 00:08:27,660 --> 00:08:29,340 It takes a hell of a lot of balls. 40 00:08:30,420 --> 00:08:34,400 It takes a lot of balls to lay back in the ocean at night and drift away with 41 00:08:34,400 --> 00:08:35,400 home. 42 00:08:38,789 --> 00:08:39,809 What happens if you get sick? 43 00:08:40,990 --> 00:08:45,290 I was sick when I came here. I'd become someone I hated. 44 00:08:50,090 --> 00:08:51,570 Maybe I conjured you up. 45 00:08:53,230 --> 00:08:54,370 Maybe we're both dead. 46 00:08:55,710 --> 00:08:56,750 Who the hell knows? 47 00:10:26,570 --> 00:10:28,650 broke your heart and you ran away. 48 00:10:52,730 --> 00:10:56,780 You know, when I was a kid, I used to divide men up into Two different 49 00:10:56,780 --> 00:10:57,780 categories. 50 00:10:58,820 --> 00:11:01,060 There were the men I scared to death. 51 00:11:03,640 --> 00:11:06,460 And then there were the men who treated me like shit. 52 00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:13,000 It's all about control. 53 00:11:14,840 --> 00:11:19,220 It sometimes just gets so goddamn tired of being yourself. 54 00:11:19,800 --> 00:11:23,800 I mean, it is nice having someone tell you what to do. 55 00:11:25,730 --> 00:11:30,050 See, the game takes a while to play at. The whole thing, it doesn't happen all 56 00:11:30,050 --> 00:11:34,850 at once. You start with a little challenge. 57 00:11:38,230 --> 00:11:39,910 Like he'll be making love to you. 58 00:11:40,830 --> 00:11:41,830 On a bet. 59 00:11:43,350 --> 00:11:47,930 Look at that guy up there on the 11th floor. He's looking at you. He wants 60 00:11:48,750 --> 00:11:49,750 Hey. 61 00:11:50,290 --> 00:11:51,610 Look up and you don't see him. 62 00:11:56,720 --> 00:12:02,360 A month goes by, another show like that happens. Then one night, you invite a 63 00:12:02,360 --> 00:12:05,020 friend over for dinner, some guy from out of town. 64 00:12:06,120 --> 00:12:07,580 Sounds pretty good looking. 65 00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:08,960 And then you get it. 66 00:12:10,180 --> 00:12:11,720 All things about control. 67 00:12:13,320 --> 00:12:16,420 You tough guys and your games are controlling. 68 00:12:18,660 --> 00:12:20,380 So what's your game, tough guy? 69 00:12:24,460 --> 00:12:26,640 Tough guys don't chop up those for firewood. 70 00:12:28,320 --> 00:12:29,420 I'm a tough guy. 71 00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:33,720 I want you to give me a kiss. 72 00:12:49,220 --> 00:12:50,980 So tell me more about the man you left. 73 00:12:54,700 --> 00:13:00,980 In the beginning, when we made love, he used to... slap my ass real hard. 74 00:13:01,440 --> 00:13:03,200 He called it his end slap. 75 00:13:03,640 --> 00:13:06,500 He said it was supposed to stop time. 76 00:13:07,380 --> 00:13:08,920 Supposed to get me out of my head. 77 00:13:10,620 --> 00:13:13,880 To concentrate all my feelings into one point. 78 00:13:16,480 --> 00:13:19,300 He'd whisper, you belong to me. 79 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:23,800 He could just say it and sometimes I would come. 80 00:13:38,060 --> 00:13:39,060 You belong to me. 81 00:13:43,140 --> 00:13:44,900 You belong to me. 82 00:13:46,580 --> 00:13:47,580 Say it again. 83 00:13:49,060 --> 00:13:50,100 Sorry, I can't. 84 00:13:52,160 --> 00:13:53,220 Can't or won't? 85 00:13:57,100 --> 00:13:58,100 Won't. 86 00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:51,280 So both come. 87 00:15:51,580 --> 00:15:52,880 And you're ready to leave. 88 00:15:53,880 --> 00:15:55,660 Signal them by lighting a fire. 89 00:15:56,220 --> 00:15:57,600 Do you want me to leave? 90 00:15:58,880 --> 00:15:59,880 No. 91 00:16:01,580 --> 00:16:03,780 But I know sooner or later you'll want to. 92 00:16:06,340 --> 00:16:07,520 You killed someone. 93 00:16:08,900 --> 00:16:12,060 Didn't... Do I look like a murderer to you? 94 00:16:12,300 --> 00:16:13,620 I didn't call you a murderer. 95 00:16:14,060 --> 00:16:15,680 I said you killed someone. 96 00:16:21,130 --> 00:16:22,270 Maybe a car accident? 97 00:16:23,290 --> 00:16:25,810 She died in a car accident. 98 00:16:28,050 --> 00:16:29,050 Didn't she? 99 00:16:32,970 --> 00:16:33,970 Yeah. 100 00:16:41,350 --> 00:16:42,950 Did you blame yourself? 101 00:16:55,050 --> 00:16:56,050 I can feel it. 102 00:16:57,830 --> 00:16:59,190 I didn't come here to hide. 103 00:16:59,570 --> 00:17:00,570 I came here to heal. 104 00:17:07,069 --> 00:17:08,210 Tell me about her. 105 00:17:11,970 --> 00:17:12,990 Too painful. 106 00:17:17,109 --> 00:17:19,030 The pain won't go away if I keep it inside. 107 00:17:34,640 --> 00:17:36,740 For the name of an actor in a fucking movie. 108 00:17:38,560 --> 00:17:39,660 She was right. 109 00:17:45,620 --> 00:17:46,720 Got it mixed up. 110 00:17:52,060 --> 00:17:53,180 Driving too fast. 111 00:17:53,560 --> 00:17:54,560 Rain. 112 00:18:04,140 --> 00:18:07,040 You never make things seem so important. 113 00:18:10,480 --> 00:18:12,480 Until you lose someone you really love. 114 00:18:23,460 --> 00:18:25,080 She was a very lucky woman. 115 00:20:25,710 --> 00:20:26,870 He's come for me. 116 00:20:47,530 --> 00:20:50,350 Can we ever truly live with abandon? 117 00:20:52,570 --> 00:20:53,850 I pushed myself. 118 00:20:54,910 --> 00:20:57,170 And I found a place in me that I had never known. 119 00:21:22,540 --> 00:21:24,820 For the first time in my life, I feel like I have it all. 120 00:21:25,420 --> 00:21:26,420 Get my drift? 121 00:21:27,400 --> 00:21:30,660 Seriously, Red Shoes, sometimes that's the only way out.